Well, it is that time again. Another year, another time where one can reflect and look back at a year passed.
For me, I will gladly leave 2011. It sure wasn’t the best of years. If anything, it has been the hardest year of my life. I haven’t said this publicly here – I have been getting to terms with it myself, but many friends will be aware that in December 2010 my father passed away. It really isn’t appropriate to discuss it too much here, but as you can imagine, it has been very hard. I am an only child, my mother also has a difficult condition and I have felt the weight on my shoulders.
This past year, I really have felt my life has been a great roller-coaster. I have faced some really difficult personal challenges. Knowing what is best under these circumstances has been really hard. I have struggled with my PhD which didn’t really get going afterwards through various circumstances. I have found myself torn in many ways, which is hard to explain to anybody who doesn’t know me well enough. So much of this past year has been so very personal, but even those who know me I’m not sure understand fully the pain I have felt. Only now are things starting to turn around for the better, although the future remains uncertain. My biggest challenge will be getting through financial barriers which is my greatest worry.
I’d like to think that through my bad experiences I have become a stronger person. Who knows? I sure have had to be defiant in my ambitions. I have been made to see life a little differently, but that has taken a number of months to work through and even now, I ponder. Perhaps my confidence has been knocked, but 2012 is a new year. I have been considering challenges I should work towards; namely, a first author paper. I plan to focus much, much more on my work which is the ambition towards my intended career path.
I am aware I have put on a few pounds over this past year and have become rather inactive. I have already started this “Couch to 5k” running plan to help get back into shape. I intend to keep track of my progress using a website I heard called Runkeeper where one can post their activities in a sort of Fitness “diary”. The great thing is, it lets you map your movements using an app on your mobile phone. That tells you the distance, time, range of elevation, average pace and route map of your activities.
This month, I am cutting alcohol from my diet totally (except possibly, Burns’ Night for some Scotch Whisky). I am not a massive drinker, but perhaps I was drinking more frequently last year.
I’m monitoring what I eat in a food diary and I am recording my weight every day in an attempt to lose weight.
I joined the university mountaineering club after a friend/work colleague encouraged me to join. I haven’t taken it so seriously as I ought to have done but I plan to attend at least once a week no matter what. I plan to go to the upcoming Pennines trip in a couple of weeks’ time.
I am a little embarrassed to say this but I have never been to a big live concert. Anyone who knows me should know I’m not into massive crowds. I have a ticket to see Dream Theater next month which I am really looking forward to. I hope to see a symphonic metal band, Delain, in May. It would be awesome if I could get to Ruisrock in Finland. I really want to see Nightwish who are set to be playing there. Many of the bands I like either have released or will release an album before the festival, most of whom are Scandinavian/Nordic. I’ll try to write a separate blog about that. I will be seeing the comedian, Jimmy Carr in a week, which should be fun, so a few things to look forward to.
I have no real travel plans at the moment. My focus has to be work which has suffered this past year. I’d like to visit Italy some day. I enjoy Italian wine, food, coffee and cars. I’m also very curious about exploring Roman history, as well as the astronomer Galileo Gailei. With uncertainty about the Euro, we’ll see about that for the moment.
I’m enjoying things a bit more at the moment. I think what was much-needed was the Christmas break, the first proper break I had all year. It sure was great to see old friends and family who I hadn’t seen for a long while. I know I felt exhausted about everything that happened over the past year. It is good to be back though. I’m looking to a better 2012.
Term hasn’t yet started, so university is very quiet currently although that is all set to change this weekend. Postgraduate demonstrating will in part keep me busy. I’m enjoying my new Kindle I received at Christmas. I love that there are so many free e-books out there – so many great classics. I now have at my leisure: the Complete Works of Charles Dickens, the Complete Sherlock Holmes Collection, Thomas Hardy’s Complete Fiction – plus so many more. In fact, I have so much reading material at the moment, it is phenomenal. I had a £50 book token, so I also have a number of great books there such as Phillip Pulman’s “His Dark Materials” which I am itching to read.
Currently, I am reading “The Time Traveler’s Wife” which proved to be an interesting film. I am already finding though that Henry and Clare’s story in the novel is much more fascinating. Niffeneger really brings to life to her characters in the novel, compared to the film which seems to lose an element of that. The film always seemed as though it could have been better.
I am trying to preoccupy myself much more with those things I really enjoy and that enable me to enjoy life. At the same time, I aim to be more healthy and active. I’m looking forward to a trip to the Pennines with the University Mountaineering Club which will be in a couple of weeks time.
2011 really got me down big time, but I feel I am finally escaping the “hole” I felt I was in. “Things can only get better.” – which leaves me with this, remembering the classic hit song by D:Ream (whose keyboard player was British Particle Physicist, Prof. Brian Cox)
So, the end of another month approaches and the clock is ticking on my PhD. It is still very early days; nearly 4 months in – blimey. My PhD is obviously the largest thing going on in my life at the moment. I’m pleased to say it’s planning out fairly well (at least I think so :-S).
I have some great opportunities lining up. Namely that our proposal for Palomar, California has been secured and we have been allocated observing time for a couple of nights then. This should prove a great experience, not only academically, but a great life experience too. I have never been outside of Europe which may be of a great surprise to many, but family circumstance etc has made this difficult. I can’t wait for the adventures my PhD has to offer over these three years. Travelling is not the main reason why I’m doing my PhD. I love the subject of astronomy. It’s been my passion for many, many years. I have a great fascination for the Universe. Being given the chance to use these great facilities, such as the 200 inch Hale Telescope is something I could only have dreamt of doing from such a young age. I cannot thank my supervisor enough for this great opportunity. I feel very privileged. I know there is much hard work I have to do in these coming months for preparation. These opportunities are quite rare.
I’m so far working through an old dataset collected as part of a programme I will have a large collaboration with as part of my PhD, SEPPCON (Survey of Ensemble Physical Properties of Cometary Nuclei). I shall soon be moving onto another dataset before I perform photometry. There is much work to do between now and then, but I hope to present something at the RAS National Astronomy Meeting in Glasgow in April. With the visit to Palomar at the end of March/beginning of April, that sure is going to be a particularly busy month or so. It might seem as though I’m moaning about the work, but I’m really enjoying it. I really can’t wait to get proper results. This work should go towards my first paper, so quite exciting.
Home is good. Everything seems to be working out really well, despite us all being introduced to one another as complete strangers. The sad thing is that I will need to find another place to live soon. Our contract ends at the end of June, and what with student accommodation turnover I need to consider where I want to live soon. I don’t want to leave it too late. I’m considering Woolf College, but in my mind that is the ‘easy’ option. The easy option isn’t always the best option from my experience. I’d sooner live on my own full stop, settle in a place I can wholly call my own with no worries to have to move for whatever reason and I can have things more how I want them. Of course, naturally, with house-sharing you can’t have things the way you might want entirely. By sharing with other people you do give up that right. I’ve been used to it over these years; it’s not a problem or anything, but it’s simply my feeling that I’m fed up of the hassle of moving. I miss having certain things that I sacrifice to leave at home.. such as my telescopes and my keyboard. I can’t complain. I guess I feel more “at home” in my current house than I’ve felt since the start of my university career, ‘moving away’ in a sense from my hometown of Skegness.
Of course, not everything has been okily ‘dokily‘ – it’s been part of that feeling of school days rearing it’s ugly head I have largely left behind me. Throughout life I’ve learnt there are always people who you simply cannot communicate with; that being due to a number of reasons. Don’t worry, I shan’t bore you with the ins and outs. It’s also the selfishness of some people that perhaps I shouldn’t let get to me so much sometimes, but God darn it… if we are to make an appointment, don’t cancel on me at the last minute for some abysmal excuse. I don’t wish to concern myself over these people, so I won’t.
I’m focusing on the people who matter most in my life. The people who are willing to listen to me when I’m down, and not only use me to rant to and ignore thereafter. Naturally, I have been trying to settle down in Canterbury and meet new people here, but perhaps I should really have thought more about those people who do really matter to me right here and now, rather than depressing myself sometimes over certain social ‘inadequacies’ here. My main focus is my PhD – that’s why I’m here. I’ve just felt let down by representation for postgraduates with very few events held last term to meet those of a similar mentality in a different subject area. My colleagues are great guys, just one thing I’ve always been told about a PhD is that it can be socially isolating – you just need to make the effort. I feel I have made that effort, but that certain representations for postgraduates haven’t helped. That seems to be improving now, anyhoo. 🙂
I want to try to catch up with my old Leicester buddies over the coming months. I miss you guys! Most people are so spread out around the country now, but many do remain in ‘The Shire’. I saw my good friend Karen this week, after her graduation last Friday xx. She came from The States for what is now a rare visit. We visited Britain’s Oldest Brewer in Faversham, about 10 miles away from Canterbury, as well as Canterbury Cathedral and a Roman Bath. There was little time to do anything else. A great shame! I hope to host many more friends – you are very welcome to visit and my door is open (within limits, of course! 😉 ).
I’m looking forward to a few things in the coming weeks… I cannot wait. Next weekend is the European Astrofest held in London. I have tickets to see Dr. Brian May (ex-Queen guitarist and astronomer) and Sir. Patrick Moore (once again :D). I have decided to go visit the Science Museum afterwards to see an exhibit I have been meaning to see for months but have not really got around to it since it’s opening in July; the exhibit of ‘Cosmos and Culture’. The following weekend I shall be attending a Northern lights flight. I’m sure I will have much to talk about. I plan to visit the Royal Observatory in Greenwich at some point in the coming weeks, especially as an old friend presents in the planetarium. Aside those astronomical ventures I hope to book tickets for comedy nights here; perhaps Chr
is Addison and/or Stewart Francis. I await notification with regards to ‘booking’ for tickets for Mock The Week. I don’t mean to sound all egotistical or anything, but the point really is that I actually feel as though I am settling in these parts.
Anyways, I shall end it there now. I feel as though I am descending somewhat into a rant. Best wishes to all my friends and those important people in my life in various parts of the UK and the world.
I don’t normally do these things but what the hey! (In no particular order…)
I’ve noticed this note go round the world of Facebook, so I was wondering when I’d end up getting tagged. I’ve now been tagged a few times but I’m not tagging 25 people though. If you want to do it, go ahead. I’m only tagging those who tagged me. I’ll add tags to people as people tag me in theirs.
Rules: Once you?ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it?s because you’re one of the first 25 people that popped into my head.
1. I moan at the world a lot, just don’t ever take anything about it personal.
2. The reason I’m a vegetarian is because the concept of eating meat is just gross to me and my personal belief is I think it is quite immoral.
3. I like to keep all my clocks and watches in sync with the talking clock. No one can ever argue with you if they consider you late ;-)! (Also it can be useful for astronomy)
4. I get very addicted to coffee and tea.
5. One of my greatest goals in life is to set foot on another planet (or moon).
6. I hate celebrity. If I pick up a paper I don’t want to read about trashy celebrities. I want to read a paper for the news. Hence why I loath the Sun, Star and Daily Mirror (UK newspapers). I probably seem quite boring for that.
7. I hate mass commercialism. E.g. Christmas can no longer be enjoyed for Christmas. I’m quite a traditionalist and ‘old-fashioned’ for those things.
8. I love getting hand written letters. I think that’s meant more personal and meaningful.
9. I can spend ages just staring at the night sky. I just have to be careful of lamp posts ;-).
10. I’m never afraid going up but am almost always terrified when I have to climb back down.
11. I love most forms of music, including Heavy Metal, Trance, Indie, Classical, Jazz. I’m not as much a fan of RnB.
12. I can speak small bits of Welsh, Portuguese, Russian, Italian. I’d like to be able to speak every language.
13. I hate shopping at supermarkets. With my luck they always tend to close off certain checkouts as they get busy.
14. I love the little things that make the world seem a better place (might seem a little soft, I know).
15. I would love to explore and travel the world ALL MY LIFE if it were possible. I want a Tardis!
16. I like to collect foreign coins.
17. I have two left feet.
18. I have a poor sense of balance and often fall over on rough/uneven surfaces.
19. Anomalies bug me. I’m quite obsessive-compulsive for that.
20. I much prefer wine over beer and lager but beer and lager is cheaper and I’m a student.
21. I’m not fond of hot weather. I much prefer the cold. You can wrap up if you’re cold, but not if you’re hot.
22. I don’t like to take medication unless it is absolutely necessary.
23. I find almost everything extremely interesting. I am naturally curious. Since I’m not a cat, that’s not dangerous!
24. I’m rather anal about detail. If someone gets something remotely wrong, I’m often very quick off the mark to point it out.
25. I’ve realised more and more, perhaps I have a bit of a take on the world similar to Dr. Gregory House, though I’d never want to be as sarcastic.